I love seeing God do miracles, don't we all? Miracles produce wonder, reverence, and remind us that we are the size of sand in the mighty, loving, hands of God. I've shared a few of the miracles I've experienced, as well as a book filled with many others, but for every testimony I share, I realize there are many who needed that same miracle, prayed for it, but did not see it happen.
So, then what? What role does faith play in losses, big and small? In Re:Birth, I shared about my terrible birth experience which was followed by crippling illness and a devastating diagnosis that it would be too dangerous to have more children (read Alexandra's Testimony 2). My dreams were crushed, my theology was wrecked, and my vision was destroyed. I was half way finished writing a book about all the miraculous things God can accomplish in pregnancy and deliveries, but my reality did not matching at all and I wanted to toss the book into the nearest trash can!
Before I did that, I had to pause and realize where God was in the midst of all my chaos. I felt like I was standing right next to Jairus. Jairus’s daughter was sick and near death, and he needed a miracle!
So he runs to the only One who can bring hope and life into his dismal situation, Jesus. Jesus agrees to come and pray for Jairus’s little girl, but on the way, an older woman touches Jesus’s cloak. The woman is miraculously healed, but in those same moments, Jairus is informed his daughter is dead. In grief, I would have pointed my finger at the woman for taking my miracle, or the crowds of people that made it so difficult to get around efficiently, and scowled at the joy on the woman’s face as she relished in her own healing. It seemed that Jarius’s window into the supernatural had closed.
The servants words did not make anything better, “Don't bother the teacher your daughter is dead.” (Mk. 5:35). The Greek for bother implies harassment and annoyance, words that make one feel like a worthless nuisance. Jairus could have listened to the denigrating words of the servant and left, in a sad, discouraged rage. I'm sure he was eager to hold his grieving wife, and comfort the shattered remains of his family. He had almost grasped a miracle, but it slipped away.
Instead of turning and leaving, Jarius stood. We don’t know whether he stood for a few seconds or minutes, but he waited for the Teachers response above every other voice around him.
When Jesus looked at Jairus, He saw through the hurt and pain, and to the very heart of the matter. With words that pierce through Heaven and earth alike, Jesus said, "Do not fear, just believe..." Those words must have brought comfort in the midst of confusion, and gave Jairus the hope he needed to keep on believing.
If you've experienced disappointment, you're in good company. Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy (Jhn. 10:10). Shawn Boltz pointed out that when he steals, he's technically stealing from God ("Keys to Heaven's Economy").And God is a just God... He will see that you are repaid and restored!
Through our struggles, Jesus's words to Jairus are just as true : "Do not fear, just believe!"Though there is pain, there will be victory. That's God's nature. Battles may be lost, but the outcome of the war was determined at Calvary. Like Jairus, we simply have to stand long enough to see it happen.
I'll leave you with one of our favorite songs. It's an oldie but goodie, and we sing it out in the midst of the battles and the pain, even when victory is nowhere to be seen.
"I have overcome!" And you will too!
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Is a wife, mother of three, author of Re:Birth, and lover of afternoon naps and phish food ice cream.